P.K. aka Pasaway Kids? 11Aug08

Pasaway Kids… Hmmm… Yun ang kadalasang tawag sa mga Pastor’s Kids, pero bakit nga ba ganun?

           

            I am also a P.K., but I have experienced  being  a normal kid. Si daddy kasi ay ilang years pa lang pastor. Actually, matagal na talaga siyang tinatawag ni God na maging pastor kaso ayaw niyang isurrender   ang work niya at ang position niya bilang Brgy. Councilor. He really loves politics. I can still remember when I was in high school, my dad cried because he knew that God was calling him a long time ago but he didn’t mind it. He was so fulfilled in being a councilor. He asked God for a sign. He asked for mom’s decision. My mom doesn’t want to be a Pastor’s wife because she knew that it will be very difficult for her and for their kids. God is indeed working in our lives because my mom said,”Kung yun ba ang sinasabi ng Panginoon e di sige.” That’s the first time I saw my dad crying. And it’s very heart-warming. But since that day until now, he became really emotional and cries a lot when it comes to the ministry. Lagi nga naming siyang niloloko pag may nangyaring something. Sinansabi naming, “yi, iiyak na yan.” Haha.. he will just smile but with a teary eye. Haaay.. My dad gave up his everything para sundin ang plans ni God for him. That inspired me a lot. I thought that maybe someday I can also do it for God.

 

            I was so happy when dad decided to be a Pastor. It was my dream to be involved in that kind of ministry. I thought that it will be very fun. I didn’t realize that it is really a great responsibility. Syempre magiging leader ka din. I was just a child, so I was not able to think about how hard it is to be a Pastor’s Kid.

 

            There are many problems when dad was studying in a Bible School. May financial problems, yung time with the family nabawasan din kasi nga lagi wala si dad kaya di na kami nakakapamasyal. Pinakamabigat na problem yung pagkakasakit ni dad. Isang week siya naospital at muntik na siyang hindi makagraduate dahil dun. Praise God, my dad graduated and is now a Pastor.

 

            When dad became a Pastor, I had a hard time in adjusting. Buti pa yung iba hindi na kelangan mag-adjust kasi since birth P.K. na sila. Akala ko talaga sobrang dali lang maging P.K. Haaay…. Lahat pala ng tao sa church nakatingin sa family naming. Siyempre dapat kang maging example. Dapat lagi kang mabait, dapat maging responsible ka, dapat maging leader ka, dapat masunurin ka, dapat lagi kang masaya. Hmmmm…. Bawal kang magkamali, dapat perfect ka sa mata ng ibang tao. Wala namang taong perfect eh.. Huhu.. Naranasan naming maging goldfish sa isang aquarium. Yun bang kita ng lahat ang mga ginagawa mo. Tinitingnan nila kada kilos mo. Konting mali sasabihin, “Anak ka pa naman ng pastor.” Syempre it hurts a lot kasi parang wala ka ng karapatan maging mali. Para kang tinanggalan ng karapatan maging tao. Huhu.. Minsan nga umiiyak na lang ako kay God sa tindi ng pressure na nararamdaman ko. Naisip ko kaya pala minsan nagiging pasaway kaming mga anak ng pastor kapag malayo sa church o sa bahay kasi dun lang kami nakakaramdam ng freedom.

 

            Hmmm.. Pero God showed me that He gave me this responsibility. Hindi tao ang nagbigay nito sakin so bakit ko sila dapat i-please eh hindi naman sila ang Diyos ko. Hindi ko dapat sayangin ang opportunity na to para mapaglingkuran si God. Sinabi sakin ni God na mali yung naging perception ko na sa sinasabi ng iba ako makinig. Dapat kay God lang talaga. Kapag kasi kay God lang tayo tumingin, lahat ng ginagawa natin ay magiging joy for us. Walang pressure na mararamdaman at siguradong magagampanan natin ng maayos yung responsibilities natin. Wag pati natin kakalimutan i-check ang laman ng heart natin. Baka kasi mamaya mali naman pala yung motibo natin. Haaay… Always walk with the Lord…

 

            Minsan pag nafi-feel ko na hindi ko kayang mag-lead kasi mahirap at alam kong weakness ko yun, I just pray to God to give me stregth and wisdom. Sa mga Pasaway kids dyan, I mean Pastor’s kids…. O kahit sa mga tao dyan who are serving the Lord, just remember this verse:

 

2 Corinthians 12:19

            My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.

 

            Let’s do our best to serve the Lord!!!